Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Project Me ~ The Start

This is a hard post for me to write.
But write it I must.

I am "putting it out to the world"
in order to help me keep a promise to myself.

And perhaps to even inspire
one person to start a
"Project Me".

My whole life I have been
'big boned'
(insert any cute term for over-weight here...)
and struggled with my weight.

A double chin when you are 6 years old???
Awww...but look how cute I was...
Don't you just want to pinch those chubby cheeks?

I would lose
(lost 50 pounds in my early 20's - mid 1980's)
I would gain it back
(gained 5 lbs the weekend of my honeymoon in 1988
and gained 50 lbs with my pregnancy in 1990)
I would lose
(lost 40 lbs in my late 20's - early 1990's)
I would gain it back
(gained 40 lbs over time...again...)

I didn't even really try
during the years of 2000 to 2009.
What was the point?

But during those years I was
certainly concentrating on someone else's
weight and health issues...

I realized that I had spent more time and energy
over the last few years
worrying and working on my cat's health
than I had on my own.
I got Banjo from 30 lbs
down to a svelte 17 lbs.

And while I want my Banjo
to live a very long and healthy life,
didn't I want the same for myself?

I was diagnosed with arthritis a few years ago in my hands
and it slowly but surely worked it's way into my hips.
Magnify that with carrying around a little
(a little?)
extra weight on those hips
and you've got trouble.

It soon started to affect my life in a big way.

I couldn't ride in the car or walk for very long 
without my hips aching and seizing up.

By the time I drove to Regina
(a 2 hour drive)
to go shopping,
I could hardly walk!

When your health starts to affect your
quality shopping time,
you know it's time to do something!

I was only in my early 40's!
There were many many years of shopping enjoyment
that I wanted to be able to experience!!

Something had to change...

"I can not change the direction of the wind.  But I can adjust my sails."
~ unknown

to be continued tomorrow...

Project Me - The Middle


Linda@VS said...

I can SO relate to what you've written here, because this is exactly how I was feeling 14 months ago. Well, I'm here this morning to give you hope. I was going to post about this topic today anyway, so check out my main blog (Velvet Sacks) in an hour or two.

Chatty Crone said...

I can relate too - good luck - looking for part two tomorrow!


Sandra said...

your story mirrors mine in every single detail, every word your wrote, except change Banjo the cat to Baby girl the dog. and my age is 67 not 40. I can't wait to read the rest of your project.
this is a saying from an overcomers group.
when the pain of staying the same is greater than the pain of change, we will change.
also, i want to say you are suffering from the same thing i did as a child. you were NOT chubby in this photo, you are adorable. i looked very similar and grew up comparing myself to my cousin who was really to thin. i THOUGHT i was fat and when i look at my photos from the first 18 years of my life i was not fat. cousin was a 5 i was a 12, 12 is not fat. i did the same thing, gained 50 pounds when i had my first child, then i was fat and spent years doing the up down. i have the same arthritis and hip thing. i am still very much over weight but did lose 21 pounds last year and have held it off for a year.

Anesha said...

We all come to that point in our lives when we just say ok, enough ,time to work on this. My weight has never been an issue until now. The last few weeks I have started eating better and doing more exercise, it's hard to be disciplined but it will be worth it! Good luck with your changes and Banjo does look so much better for his weight loss! Hugs Anesha

Hot Rocks said...

You can do it Catherine!
I came to the same conclusion almost 2 years ago, when my health became a concern. I have lost 40 lbs...(which on my 5'2" frame is quite a bit) and kept it off for almost 1 year now. A complete change of eating habits is necessary...just like in Banjo, I am sure! Also, I exercise 5 times a week ( 45-60 min.)All the hard work has paid off...I feel wonderful, and at 53 years old, I look better than I did at 25! You go girl...I have faith in you!

Brian said...

I know you can do it, you can do it, you can, I know it!

Fuzzy Tales said...

Ah, yes....As long as you don't make it a "diet," Catherine, but a lifestyle change that is enjoyable for you. Because you won't stick to anything that smacks of deprivation, guilt and self-punishment.

But finding healthier ways of cooking favourite foods, being more active if you're not (at something fun), perhaps watching your portion sizes if you overeat (I overeat as well as eat too much sugar)--those are all positive, enabling lifestyle changes.

BTW, did you see the report about the 100-year old man who ran/walked the Toronto marathon last weekend? Wow!!!

BumbleVee said...

I made this decision many years ago when I was 21 ... and inching above the 160 mark.... I'm only 5' 2".... so that was far too heavy for me.
My situation was compounded... I was also drinking (a lot) and making other very poor choices in life. lt was a pretty pathetic image staring at me when I looked in the mirror one morning ....all pudgy and blotchy ........ and I just said out loud..... to nobody but myself... "what's it gonna be babe? " There were only two choices as far as I could see... and the second was not an option.

I quit drinking on the spot... started doing some reading up on busy walking, and quit putting everything that looked like food into my mouth. Within two years I had lost 50 pounds, belonged to a 'ladies only' gym and was there almost every day... even changed jobs so I could go mid day... was looking pretty darn svelte if I may say so... and would never go back again.

Years later I did have a slight "relapse" as I called it... sailed back up about 15 -20 because I was cooking for a big guy... and didn't even realize how much I was eating right along with him. 6 months later...I had it back down to what I like as my perfect weight range..... anywhere from 120 to 128....that's about it. That is the weight at which I feel comfortable. When I go over that... I just don't move the same. Don't feel comfortable in my only comes back on around my waist...acckk!!... and I'm too darn cheap just to toss things and buy a larger size.... and I'm the opposite of you...I hate shopping ...for clothes. I'd rather shop for a new sofa or something for the house. So... I just eat smaller portions and move more. Surprisingly, ... that is the only thing that is necessary to lose is only a matter of calories in and calories burned.
Hey... you could take up golf...I lost 11 pounds over the past few months just doing that.... of course, now that I am home more...and baking more.... and nibbling more because there is food around and I have time....I've already gained back some of that.
Long story somewhat shorter.... if you have a treadmill..use it..if not or it is not a good one...get one! Seriously. I use mine every single day in our winters...I don't walk outside it is too dangerous and if it is snowy and can't get up any speed at all anyway. I do 40 minutes on there and then some workout routines that I have made up for myself... and then some good stretches. Yes it takes time...yes you have to sweat... but, you will feel better and darn it anyway... you will be proud of you for having accomplished it. I'm now 66 and still hanging around my preferred weight. In winter I gain a few pounds, eating differently and some due to hibernation as I call it...and in summer I burn that off and more.... .. smaller portions and moving more have become a way of life. I love to eat...and I do. I eat anything I want to eat as a matter of fact ... just in smaller portions. And I enjoy it immensely. Calories in; calories out yet again. If I want to eat a bit more I have to move more ...a lot more.
Okay...this has gone on waaay too's obviously become a novella...but, it happens to be a big thing in my life... as it is in most folks' lives from what I see... and I just wanted to share my story...

You can do this, Cat.... for you, for Wayne..for Stuart.... for Banjo... it will affect you all. Wonderfully.

LĂșcia said...

Because of my problematic knee, people think I'm lazy (obviously they don't feel my pain), and because my red skin (rosacea), many times people mock me as if I was wearing a clown nose... Some things you can change, some things you can treat and other things you have to learn how to deal with.
If you're not happy with your weight, go ahead, use all your positive energy and I'm sure you'll succeed. :)

TexWisGirl said...

YAY for Catherine!!!! i can relate. i've gone up and down all my life. some phases of adulthood being great - others, not so much. i gave myself a swift kick in the ass for my 48th birthday this year, and am so much happier with myself - and my health - than i have been in years. you can do this!!!

BeadedTail said...

This could have been me writing that Catherine! Well, except for the losing weight part since I haven't really done much of that but a couple of months ago I decided enough is enough and I'm trying to change my life. As you know it is so not easy but I know it'll be worth it. I'm looking forward to seeing The Middle part!

~Kim at Golden Pines~ said...

You've gotten some wonderful and supportive comments--I'll add my support too and will be cheering you on from the sidelines!!!!

Donna said...

proud of you for writing does not seem to let us get away with too seems! go girl! (and keep writing about it)

your old blog friend...

It's me said...

Love and a big kiss from

S. Etole said...

Best wishes on your project. You certainly were a cute little girl!

The Smiths said...

Seems like there are a lot of us in the same boat!

Don't be so hard on yourself - you at 6 looked perfect to me...

Good luck with your change of life.

Look forward to hearing all about it!

Kay :)

Ann said...

I think we all have a project me that we would like to work on. Good for you for thinking of taking care of you. I know you can do this and you've got the support of all your loyal followers behind you

The Cat Guy said...

It takes a lot of courage to take on such an undertaking of making your self-care a priority. It takes even more courage to share that undertaking with others.

Just as Banjo is worth the investment so are you.

Many blessings.

Katherines Corner said...


Alina said...

Dear Catherine, remember this: Baby Steps...One Day at a time...I send you a big hug and tons of wishes for a happy Autumn and a huge success in your new venture. You go girl!!!! XO

SweetMarie said...

Catherine I think it's great that you are sharing this with all of us. Sometimes it's easier to get up and go when you have support. We are here to support you and you are probably motivating a lot of us followers right now. I'm already thinking and asking myself what am I waiting for! You can do it!

Lin said...

Oh, it's a never-ending battle over here with weight. I have been going to weight watchers forever it seems and it keeps me on track. While I don't go to meetings, I do stick to their principles and try to eat really healthy. Oh--and I joined the pool this year. Every little bit helps!

I'm glad you are taking care of YOU!

Stacey Dawn said...

Oh my friend I can relate big time. I get shots in my hips from the pain - due to a few illnesses. I am doing a Project me - been working on it for a few years now.... not all of it on weight. I'm currently back on that band wagon and am trying hard to lose.... we can be pen pal encouragers and help each other LOSE for good! xo you can do it!!

Linda R. said...

Isn't that how it always goes. We work on ourselves last. I know I do.. Good luck to you my friend. I will be here to cheer you on!! YOU CAN DO IT!

Hugs, Linda

Linens and Royals said...

Good luck Catherine, if Banjo can do it so can you. I am 5'1" and small boned so every ounce I put on shows and even though I only weigh xx now I still have to lose XX pounds. I gave up alcohol but can't live without chocolate coated peanuts. Plus I hate any type of excercise unless it's shopping. XX

missing moments said...

This story could be mine!!! So looking forward to this series. And the Banjo pics are great!

Catherine said...

Thwill bake some tomorow! love scones e story could be mine too, in fact IS mine!i have been walking with my dog 4 km on a sunny, but cold day. i feel fine tonight!Banjo is VERY THIN now!!!Blessings Catherine

Mariette said...

Dearest Catherine,

Guess that first it is genetic as I have all my life eaten what I wanted and as much as my husband did. Often friends are amazed at what I can put away. But never gained weight. Now that I am diabetic type II and without sweets, it is even hard to keep my weight. Since I've been 15 my weight was steady, with the exception of January 2010 when I was paralyzed and loosing weight from pain to 46.8 kg. Had to struggle to put it back on; eating, eating and eating. I cried in Key West on vacation when my shorts fell off my hips as there was nothing to hold them up but my belt. So important is to be healthy, no high blood pressure etc. Checking with your doctor is important and I believe also that sugars do count, as does alcohol; which is sugar too!

Love to you and oh, Banjo has the same problem as our Spicy. She is square and what can we do???

lisa said...

Kudos to you Cat, and I truly enjoyed reading this!

The Purr Diaries said...

What an effort to get Banjo down from 30 lbs to 17 lbs!!! He is so gorgeous with his blue eyes! :o)

Jaime said...

I wish I had known there were multiple parts to this post... I would have scrolled down and read it from the bottom, up! (I think you did mention the different parts, but I wasn't paying attention, obviously.)
Great job on Banjo! He is looking very handsome in that after photo.


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