Monday, August 9, 2010

Sleep Keeps Escaping Me

I wake up...
12.33 am...
I toss and turn for the next couple of hours...
I can't shut my brain off...
It races and roars...
Thoughts going through my head...
Worry worry worry...
What if what if what if...
I try to stop thinking...

I try to think of pleasant things...
I try everything to help me fall back to sleep...
Including counting sheep...
1 sheep...
2 sheep...
3 sheep...
I try reading my book "The Worry Cure"...

I'm about half way done...
I'm not sure it's really working...
I bought myself a beautiful new journal...

The "I Can't Sleep - A journal for passing the time when insomnia strikes and my brain is circling in on itself, cannibalizing the trivialities of the day and exaggerating the ticking of the clock, reminding me that every minute spent awake is another minute closer to when I'll have to get up, though many of the great artists and sages were insomniacs and that's part of how they got so much done, so if I can't sleep I might as well write and channel my misery into something productive."...
Each left side of the page has an insightful, thought provoking, cute quote about sleep...
Or lack there off...
I haven't written in it yet...

I'm worried my writing will be too messy...
{I know... it's a sickness...}

"Stop worrying - nobody gets out of this world alive." ~ Clive James

Any helpful hints of what you do when you can't sleep?

21 comments:

Dragonfly Treasure said...

Oh I hate nights like that! So sorry to hear they are now in your life. Mine have subsided, more or less.
I used to get up and clean the bathroom, kitchen or whatever needed cleaning. I knew I would be too tired the next day to do it, so might as well be productive while I can't sleep. If I was hungry I'd have half a peanut butter (no jelly) sandwhich and a cold glass of chocolate milk.
That's what worked for me...a little unorthodox but hey.
Wishing you a good nights sleep!
Sweet dreams!
*hugs*deb

Linda Robinson said...

OMG, I have the same problem.. I have always been a great sleeper. Till about 6 mo. Now I wake up at 3:30 in the morning wide awake.. For awhile I would just lay there and try to go back to sleep. Now I give it 1/2 hour and then I get up and read or blog or just sit out side and have my coffee... I think its a sign of getting old! I did not just say that did I! He he.. Poor Becca gets to listen to me complain about it!

Well I hope the both of us get some sleep tonight!

Hugs, Linda

Lin said...

Isn't it frustrating how the simplest things become HUGE in the middle of the night??! Ugh.

I try to clear my mind and do my yoga breathing. I also try to do some exercise a couple of hours before bed to help tire me out. And if all else fails (I just read this one the other day) I try to list food that begin with each letter of the alphabet. You can do fruits and veggies....A apple, B banana, C cantalope....etc.

Try that. Hope it works!

Laurie said...

I have these nights alot!! I hope you get answers, then I will!!! And they always happen when i have to get up early, making it even harder to turn off my head!

BeadedTail said...

I tend to wake up with worries in the middle of the night too and often watch the minutes until morning tick away. I once heard that to shut your mind off, think of a word, repeat it in your mind slowly and each time you 'say' it in your mind, picture it too. For instance, say the word cat and each time you do, picture Banjo. This is supposed to stop the wandering thoughts but it's not so easy for me to do but maybe it'll help you!

Sweet dreams!

Djego`s Welt said...

Hallo Catherine
Vielen Dank für Deinen Kommentar!
Ich stricke wenn ich nicht schlafen kann. :)
Liebe Grüsse
Dany

Linens and Royals said...

Will be watching the comments advice with interest; not even thinking 'royal thoughts' helps me on those bad nights when I just can't sleep. Cats never suffer from insomnia, wish I knew their secret.

Jen said...

I had a LOT of trouble with insomnia when I was taking steroids (at a very high dose for a muscle disease), it's awful. I always ended up just getting up and doing something; laying there will make you mental :o) Hope you catch some good ZZZZ's soon!

~Kim at Golden Pines~ said...

I had insomnia for a couple of years and for me, it helped to get up and empty my mind by playing a game on the computer--I wish I'd known about blogs then but I didn't. But on work nights I tried to take a hot bath before bed and watch TV, and as a last resort I took the allergy medication "benedryl" which always makes me sleepy...I know I'm not much help and I hope you find something that works for you!

Brian said...

Oh my, that sure doesn't sound like fun, but don't worry about that!

Alina said...

Sorry Cath, but I can't help you on this one...the minute my head hits the pillow: I'm gone to Dreamland. My husband totally hates me for this, he has lots of sleepless nights and any tiny noise wakes him up. He says he copes by thinking of new plans for his business but then, this makes him want to get up and start them right away, so, he's back to not being able to fall asleep anyway. Have you tried to get to the root of your worries? Maybe it's just something that could be helped simply by knowing "why" you react the way you do. My friend was totally horrified of driving and visiting a therapist helped her realize that fear was due to a certain childhood incident she experienced. It took a while but she now drives everywhere. Books are good but sometimes the guidance of an expert can really help. In any case, I hope you find the solution! Here goes a hug and a sweet lullaby XO
PS Thank you for the lovely comment on my last post. It made me teary eyed!

Betsy from Tennessee said...

Oh My..... When I was on some of that horrible medication after my knee surgery, I couldn't sleep... I was wide awake at 3 a.m. A few times I got up and did some computer work.. Most times, I just tossed and turned... It was AWFUL....

I am off of that darn medicine now --and am sleeping better. However, I do wake up with my achy legs alot.... That's not fun either...

My mother used to be a worry-wart. She'd worry about anything and everything... I used to tell her to quit worrying about things she had no control over....

I'm not a worrier --but I do love my sleep.... Great post, Catherine... I do hope though that this is just a fun blog and is NOT what you are going through...

Hugs,
Betsy

Jacqueline said...

I exercise in the middle of the night when I can't sleep, usually with the TV on or I read...Hope you get some good rest tonight; lack of sleep really catches up with me quick now=how did I ever used to party on a regular basis and go to work the next day?!...(of course, that was over 20 years ago :)!)

Hazydaisy said...

Oh, Catherine, that must be awful!
I'm one of those fortunate people who sleep like a baby mostly but my husband tosses and turns all night!

Julie Magers Soulen said...

I found myself in the same situation last night. It is frustrating! Then the next day you are so tired. I have found a natural homeopathic remedy called "Calms." It's nonaddictive and really helps me. Find it at your health food store. Good luck!

Cheers!
Julie
Julie Magers Soulen Photography

Velvet Over Steel said...

Sorry to hear that you can't sleep Catherine... but great poem and post about it. I liked the added pictures too. :-)

I went through a really bad time 4 years ago. Too much on my mind and way too many things to worry about. I finally got my anxiety under control with meditation and even self-hypnosis meditation cds with headphones. It really, really helped me a lot. I still go to sleep most nights listening to one. Relaxing used to be amost impossible for me a few years ago.

I hope you can stop the worry and get some sleep soon!!

Hang in there!
Hugs,
Coreen

Paul C said...

Thoughtful post with a reference to several perspectives on the issue. A regular exercise schedule could be the answer for some. That could take many forms. I play squash three times a week at 6 in the morning.

Katy Noelle said...

Melatonin! It works wonders but, if you're allergic to ragweed, you need to watch how much you take (i.e. take a break after two weeks.) Catherine, I have Chronic Fatigue and Immune Dysfunction syndrome. I need 11 hours of sleep a night which I rarely get and, sometimes, I can't sleep because of it. Oh, glory! I guess what I'm saying is that I know what you mean. I have to carefully approach the evening so that I can shut my ol' brain down.

I wish you wisdom on the road to figuring it all out!

Love, Me xo

Connie said...

I wish I had an answer but unfortunately I don't! As a matter of fact, I do the exact same thing!All too often I worry, worry, worry and "what if" myself out of a decent night's sleep. Ga!

Stacey Dawn said...

I'm sleep struggling myself!
Love that journal though - might have to get one for myself!!!

Alisa said...

I could have used those books last night. I was laying awake worrying about my mothering (me as a mother) being not good enough. It seemed so serious last night, I couldn't get it out of my mind. I woke up this morning, really tired, but feeling much better. In the middle of the night things always seem so drastic.

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