Thursday, June 17, 2010

Don't Laugh at Me

I am so glad I do not live in a 'cookie cutter' world...

Growing up I often "marched to the beat of my own drum"
The few times I did go down the wrong path
it was because I started following a different drummer

I was often made fun of when I was younger
I was different

I was not a size 2
{sadly my high school weight is lower then my now 'goal' weight ~ ha!}
I was not 5' 6"
{I like to say I'm 5' 3"...though that's stretching it a bit}
I was not the girl who always had a boyfriend
{I wish I knew back then that Wayne was going to be there for me...
sigh... all those wasted tears...}
I was not one of the pretty girls
{chubby, mousy brown hair, too small of nose, glasses}
I was not one of the fashionable girls
{though as it was the 80's ~ 'fashionable' is a loose term}
I was not one of the party girls
{I often could be found at home reading or listening to music}
I did not take part in any sports
{I was the kid always picked last for the team... honesty... couldn't any of my
teachers have made me 'captain' even once during 12 years of phys. ed.
so that I was able to do the picking of the team?!!}
My family did not have money
{I had an after school job since grade 9 and helped
to pay for my own clothes and school supplies}
I was not one of the 'cool' kids

Something inside me never needed to be 'the same'
I will always be thankful for that

If you are beating your own drum today
dance proudly my friend...



4smartmonkeys said...

I am right there with you! If only we knew how wonderful our life's would be when we were in high school.
Hooray for being 'different'.

ilovemyhouse said...

Oh Catherine, what a beautiful post and that SONG! I got goosebumps all over me and tears in my eyes. I had the perfect youth.Sporty,popular,blond long legs and lots of boyfriends.It taught me NOTHING. I did my growing up at around 40 when i had my first set back in life.Isn't that terrible? That set back made me a better person Thank God!
Catherine, you are one of my favorite bloggers. XX

Donna said...

i love the way you share feelings so sincere and so relative to so many of us. all I can say is "LOOK AT YOU NOW KID"!

Happy Thursday Catherine!

katrina lauren said...

imagine how dull our world would be if we were all the same...yawn! thought provoking post about what we should really celebrate...diversity!

Julie Magers Soulen said...

Love your post today. I think most of us were the "uncool" kids and have learned strength of character and compassion for others from the experience. Thanks for sharing yours!

Julie Magers Soulen Photography

Brian said...

I couldn't agree more, purrfect post!

Linda Robinson said...

What a wonderful post.. It really made me think of how I grew up. I never had any confidence. If I had a different personality, maybe a little more self esteem. I probably could have been the cheerleader, Popular type. It is so funny how what we think of ourselfs plays a big roll in life! But Now that I'm older, I'm am happy of who I am. And like Katrina said, how boring it would be if we were all the same!

Thanks for giving me something to ponder!

Hugs, Linda

Becca said...

Great post Catherine, and I love your new look! I just came over for a visit after I left you that email, and saw your change too. It looks fabulous! :-)

~Kim at Golden Pines~ said...

I felt like I was seeing myself in your post today--Except I wasn't short, I was always too tall. But also like you, I thrive on doing my own thing which is why I live in the country so I can sing and dance in the driveway with our dogs and no one can see me! ;-) I hope you're enjoying your week!!

Marg said...

That was a great post. I was the same as you when I was young but I was a youngster way before you. Like in the early fifties. But I did like sports.
It was fun reading this.
Have a great day.

S. Etole said...

Celebrating you ... and the beauty you bring to our lives.

Jacqueline said...

I was always different too, Catherine; I seemed to be friends with the group of popular kids and the group of unpopular kids too, but I never really fit into any one place...Yes, if only I knew then what I know now, my choices would have been much different...but, that's how I ended up here, right...and although there are things missing in my life, there is also so much happiness and gratefulness inside of me for what really matters...Life lessons are tough, but help us get to better places!

Betsy from Tennessee said...

We didn't know this when we were young, Catherine, but the rich were no happier than I was; the pretty girls didn't think of themselves as pretty; the skinny girls always thought they were fat; etc. etc.etc.

IF we looked and yearned to be like OTHERS, well--I think WE were the lucky ones. I was a happy kid just being me, and I'm thankful that I was not one of those 'perfect' girls (who didn't really exist --except in MY mind).... Yes---we beat our own drum and that is a good thing!!!! Just look what we accomplished.


Katy Noelle said...

I'm all choked up from the last bit where everyone responded with kindness and friendship. I was always awkward and "out", growing up, too. I just didn't get how to make friends.

Then, in my sophomore year in High School, the most amazing thing happened. The most popular girl that I've ever known (and the most friendly), from church group (the high school group had 300 kids in it - some of them very wealthy.) noticed that I was lost and made it a mission to make sure that I was always with her. I became popular, in a way, - both at school and church - but always on the fringe. ALWAYS my quirky, clueless self.

By the time I reached my later years in college, I made a decision. (try getting along in the doggy soprano eat doggy soprano world!!! blech!) I decided that I was "in" and anyone else who wanted to be my friend and be "in" too, could be. I was just friendly and kind and purposefully oblivious to those other poor pathetic snooty souls. It worked! well, well.

Cat, did I mention that I would be posting and visiting but just not commenting too much in the next couple of months? Let's just say that this novelette that I've written here is my "last hurrah" for a bit. I WILL be visiting, though!

Love, Katy xo

BeadedTail said...

I can relate to so much of what you said today. I don't look back fondly on my school years but look at how we turned out!

marita bl├╝cher said...

Hello Catherine,
What a pleasant surprise to find your kind worlds on my blog - many thanks for that. And, also many thanks for sharing your wise thoughts and conclusions about life and growing up. I can only agree with you - follow the beat of your own drum, accept that your different and be proud of it.
I wish you a nice weekend.

Warm regards/Marita

Alina said...

A lot of my own experiences are quite similar to yours. I believe what "saved me" during those days was my inner world. It was so full and wonderful! All I can say is, your drum plays a wonderful tune, a great beat that sounds loud and clear! Have a magical weekend XO

Jaime said...

YEAH...who wants to be the same as the next cookie anyway?!

Funny, I used that same term, cookie cutter in my most recent post too. We are connected my friend.

Good to see you :)

Stacey Dawn said...

I resemble many of your remarks...
I don't fit any mold either - and most of the time I'm glad for it!

PS: I'm an 80's girl too....loved them! haha

bad penny said...

Why DO teachers do that thing where kids pick the teams ? hateful !
It's terrible isn't it ? - if only we could have seen into the future & see we would be happy. I was shy, had terrible acne all through my teens & never thought anyone woud actually want to MARRY me !!!

Connie said...

I may not have known you as a child, but I am blessed to know you as an adult... and I have to say are beautiful both inside and out! xx

Laurie said...

Your life was mine also Catherine, I hated school for those reasons. And the song said it all. Very excellent post, very thought provoking. Thanks! Now go enjoy the beautiful life you have now!


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